My perception of time is so messed up. I can’t remember if it’s been 2, 3, or more years since you died. Everything has been happening nonstop, and I haven’t had the time to realize how fast it’s all been moving. I wish I could tell you all about it!
There’s been times where I see something or something happens and I’m like “oh, I have to text Damian this”, but then I remember that someone else probably has your phone number now. I’ve needed your advice and I find myself walking aimlessly, trying to remember how to get to your room in the house we don’t live in anymore.
Olivia points to your photos on the wall and smiles. She giggles sometimes when we get up close to them. I talk about you a lot, as if you’re just far away and haven’t made the time to visit yet. I think Liv knows you even though she’ll never meet you in her life. She’ll smile and point to a picture of you and I and say, “Dam, Mama”…which blows my mind. “How do you know Uncle Damian, Little Livvy?” I ask her, laughing at her giggles. She’ll always know her Uncle Damian.
It’s weird not having you around. I miss your laugh, and your sass, and your absolute distaste for most things. You were the other side of my coin, the night to my sun, different but the same. It’s amazing how deep our friendship was. You were absolutely my soulmate, my best friend whose love transcended our lifetime and will persist into the next.
My perception of time is awful, but I know for a fact that I’ll be missing you until the end.
Hello everyone! Today is my late best friend Damian’s birthday, so I’ve written a little letter to him. I like to do this from time to time for the people that I’ve lost; this particular one isn’t too personal to share (I be gettin in my FEELS sometimes, y’all, it gets sad) and I honestly thought it was good enough to post. So, thank you for reading and thank you for always allowing me to write things that make me feel good!
If you liked what you read today, feel free to follow me on here and Twitter! I usually don’t post super sad stuff, today is just a Special Sad Day. Luckily, I’m at the stage of grief where I can look back on memories Damian and I share together and smile! So stay tuned for more posts about…well, whatever I decide to post next week.
Thank you again for reading, and I’ll see you here next time with something new!