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As the weather grows cold and nights creep in earlier and earlier, I find myself struggling to motivate. Seasonal Affective Disorder mixes in with the usual depression I hold at bay most of the year and tips my mood over into the Sad Zone. Mix that with negative coping mechanisms and you get a very unmotivated Mary.

The only thing that I’ve been able to force myself to do every day is write. I enjoy it, as I always have, and when I’m done I’m satisfied with the 1,000–2,000 words I end up writing. …


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Me realizing I have to actually write in order to finish my novel (screenshot belongs to Nickelodeon and the Spongebob crew, of course)

Hello everyone! It’s been a very strange week for me. Work’s been super slow, COVID cases are rising (as is my anxiety about them), and we’ve all been debating whether or not to risk Thanksgiving festivities, which is a huge bummer for me since it’s my favorite holiday. Thinking about not being able to see my family and eat all the food makes me sad, but so does thinking about not being able to do so in the future because we risked it this year. Needless to say, it’s been a stressful week!

As you can imagine, all this anxiety and stress has affected my National Novel Writing Month (aka NaNo) progress. The hot start I had the first week of November has slowly dwindled, and now that we’re approaching the third week, I’ve seen my word count line on the website’s graph slowly but surely meet the suggested wordcount the website gives you. Basically, ya girl has had trouble staying ahead! …


But there’s still so much work to be done.

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(Photo from the Associated Press)

Kamala Harris made history this past week. She is the first woman, first mixed race woman, first person of South Asian and African descent, to be named the Vice President of the United States.

When I saw that Joe Biden had won the election, I felt relief. I was working at the time, but if I had been home I would’ve cried. These past four years under Trump’s presidency have been chaotic and terrifying (and that’s putting It lightly). …


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(Photo from https://www.twenty20.com/photos/98f609e6-8eb8-4586-aa78-6410b36029f6)

Hello everyone! Today, we’re going to talk about how I suck at managing my time. As someone with ADHD, I’ve always had the worst time trying to manage my time. It’s damn near impossible for me to get everything done that I need to and want to in one 24 hour period. Adding my depression and anxiety into the mix makes time management worse and super stressful.

Now that I’m an adult who’s responsible for my own time, it’s been a trial of patience for not only me, but everyone I know. I’m surprised I still have friends because I always show up late, if I show up at all. Even when I do show up, I show up empty handed because, of course, me rushing around to get to where I need to be means I’ve forgotten what I’m supposed to bring along with me. …


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We carved pumpkins! Mine is the moon!

Hello everyone! October started off slow, but really sped up near the end. I can’t believe it’s the last Monday already! Usually, I’m excited to write the end-of-month wrap up post…but this month, I don’t really have a whole lot to talk about. I’ve had a nasty cold almost all month, so in the interest of keeping everyone happy and healthy, I haven’t been doing much outside of the normal.

Recently my cold has been clearing up, however, so I’ve been able to do a few Fall Activities! As we all know by now, Fall is my favorite season so I’ve been very happy with the leaves changing and the weather cooling off (even though my allergies are killing me and the chill air has me dreading winter!). …


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(https://www.statepress.com/article/2017/11/spopinion-seasonal-affective-disorder-needs-more-attention-even-in-az)

Hello everyone! The weather is getting chilly, and the leaves are all sorts of beautiful colors. You know what that means? Seasonal Depression is right around the corner!!

While Fall/Autumn is my favorite season, I know that my seasonal depression follows the change in seasons. Over the past few years of being diagnosed, I’ve found that preparing for the Sad Times to come make life easier for me and everyone around me.

This year, I’ve had to be a little different with my preparation. I usually try to get my ducks in a row around November, but because I’ve been hit with the Sad Times pretty much all year thanks in part to the uncertainty of Covid, I’ve been actively working on coming up with ideas to combat when my depression gets really rough. …


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It’s really hard to write with a Freya on you…

Hello everyone! I’ve been planning my National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo) project all month…well, trying to, anyways. As regular readers may know, I am the Queen of Procrastination. I got through high school riding that Procrastination Wave, and now that I’m not in school anymore, I still consistently complete most deadlines the night before.

In order to get somewhat ahead of the curve when it comes to worldbuilding for NaNo, I forced myself to work on “Years Apart” last night. It’s fun to worldbuild and get to know a story, but I usually have to make myself do things I enjoy instead of procrastinating by doing other, less productive things I also enjoy (I’m looking at you, Animal Crossing!). …


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Photo from: https://inhabitat.com/bioluminescent-forest-film-uses-digital-mapping-to-light-up-the-natural-world/

Orange and red leaves covered the ground as Phil and I walked through the dense forest. It was getting colder, and I wondered how long we would still have light. As we climbed over fallen branches, I could see Phil’s confidence dwindle with every step.

Finally, he stopped walking and turned to look at me. His eyes were full of worry, his brow creased. “Babe, I think we’re lost.” A sigh escaped my lips, but I held back the rest of my frustration as he looked on and waited for me to reply. All I could do was shrug. “Look, we came from that way, right?” He asked, pointing behind me. …


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Toad!

Hello everyone! I’m sure you are all sick of me saying this, but WOW September came and went just like that, huh? I’m almost unhappy that 2020 is going so fast…but who am I kidding, this year has been intense. Maybe it’s a good thing we’re flying through it!

Since September went by so fast, I feel like I don’t have a whole lot to say about it. There are some cool things that happened this month, however, so let’s get into it!

Banged Up

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Bangs!

For my birthday last month, my GM Tab gave me a gift certificate to her best friend’s salon. I needed a haircut, and the gift card came at the best time. The first Tuesday of September, I went to Citrine Hair+Skin to finally get my hair cut. …


Or, how the hell does this thing work…

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Hello everyone! I’m currently writing this week’s blog post on my fancy, new-to-me iPad Pro! My sister gave me her old iPad and her Apple Pencil (thanks to my mom, she got paid for it…shout out to family, right?). In her words, she “never used it anymore”, so now it’s mine!

I’ve wanted an iPad for several years. I wanted to teach myself how to make art digitally, as well as use all the coloring apps I had downloaded and couldn’t use because my chunky fingers blocked everything. I bought my stepdad’s old iPad Mini but the tech was unfortunately too old for me to accomplish my goals. …

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Mary B. Golubich

I write about music, movies, life, and Other Generic Things.

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